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Friday, October 14, 2005

i feel so crappy today :(
i dont knw why,
i just feel bad about evrythng.
and i feel moody.

i did badly for my papers;
i failed chinese; english? aint good;
sort of had a quarrell wiv kat;
i felt very unhappy wiv everyone;
my hair makes me look like a stupid kid;
mom scolded me for being ignorant;
dad scolded me for not helping him do smthg;
and i talk little?
i dont knw lah.
tt's just me i guess.

although yes,
you may say all these are just little small matters.
but maybe im too sensitive,
so, all these things just make my day go downdownhill.
i feel really bad about myself today.
and when my day sucks,
i blog.
tt's why im here now.

ahyah.
i dont know !!!!!!!!!!!!
i jus feel very lousy today.

and confidence?
i have none of tt.
seriously,
im a very pessimistic person.
although, yes, i may be encouraging people to look forward to the better things.
but me, myself?
i dont even like, look forward to those.

and me?
i dont think im the kind of person who show people how i really feel.
and that always lead to a misunderstanding.
why? why are things like this?
its so crap.
like wat kat said,
i just dont know how to explain myself.
i dont know how to give explanations.
so can somebody pls help me interpret wat i want to say/do?

i hate today.
i really do hate today.

11:46 PM;

kLA VOISINE

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