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Sunday, April 10, 2005

There're some paths in life where you cant choose.
you just got to abide and follow the instructions.
although you really really dont want to.
but hey,
tt's life.

It's hard to let go,
yes it is.
its gonna be real hard letting go of wat you love most.
you;ll have to let go of everything.
simply everything.
your dearest darling; your few best friends; your crazy companions; your lesbo; your school life; your usual life;
lets just put it tis way,
your whole life is ruined.
just as things were on the sweetest side,
everything is POOF.
gone. gone with the wind.

but i guess,
when the time really comes,
everyone'll start to forget.
my existence will no longer be felt.
and everyone'll pretend tt everything was just a dream.

yes i admit,
i love running away from problems.
but tt's because i dont have the courage to face it.
neither do i want to admit tt the problem is just in front of me.
i keep lying to myself tt everything's gonna be okay,
when it actually isnt.
im dumb right?
im so foolish.
maybe, if i had faced it sooner,
it'll be allright by now.
sigh.

and what do i do now?
i only know how to rant on my blog.
yah. at this moment,
instead of finding a solution,
im ranting on my blog.
but seriously,
wat solution can i come up with?
nothing! actually there's nothing i can do.

im a shithead.

1:19 PM;

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