Don't you ever wish, you were someone else?
Someone much better than yourself,
Whom at least looks perfect in everybody's eyes?
Changes around you makes you feel sick,
Feelings turn as situations lead you to.
Trials doesn't make you stronger,
They demolish your grip & make you weak.
They bite into your heart,
Slicing and wounding it,
Killing you softly with each spoken word.
You start losing all battles,
Not knowing how to fight anymore.
You lost all tinge of hope,
You lost all dreams you've had.
Disappointment rushes into your heart,
Fear of lost overwhelms you;
Hurt causes tears to well in your eyes.
You start fretting but to no avail.
Nobody's with you.
You are alone - remember that;
You know you can't depend on others.
The thought of it made your back chill,
You want to depend on this special person,
Dedicate your life into his hands.
Yet you're contradicting yourself deep within.
The pain in your heart is excruciating.
You feel the hurt causing your heart:
To shudder at every word & action.
The wound is deep,
You need help, immediately.
Yet each time you sought help,
Further complications made:
Causes whips of burns in your heart,
Your heart bleeds even worst.
Things continues..
Accusations piles,
Blames stacks.
You don't know who you are anymore.
You don't know who to be,
The will of life is lost,
You feel real hurt.
And you don't know how to express yourself,
If you do..
The wheel spins with a full spin again..
You're getting tired & old,
Yet your heart still feel strongly.